Adrupt

I realized. I'm too easily influenced.

by the demons in my head

now the negativity of training is back on me. what to do.

so has the fear of gaining weight

that obscene paralyzing fear
and i can't stop eating, just to openly defy it.

but the more it lashes out. damn it.

so now basically when i train, i'm thinking.

run faster to lose all that fats.

honestly. this is so twisted

and i'm not that fascinated by fire anymore. SHOCKER.

so tired

lets just curl up and forget the world.