Glowing embers

andddd only one person reads this blog!

me #foreveralone

ah to the hell with it. talking to yourself is something reassuring

and not the first sign of insanity so shut it.

but i need someone to talk to though.
or just listen and go

its ok. what do you wanna do?

and then life will be happy again

stupid misleading fairytales

nah. i dont want to feel indebted to anyone

or tied down

I don't know. I'm skeptical about commitment.

to me, it is all just a bluff.
hidden under the pretense of alluring, irresistible promises

I'll be there for you
Just tell me anything you want

it's not that I hate company.
but sometimes, I think if there were 2 of me, life would be great
cause I could talk to myself IRL. and not do it in my mind

hm. nothing huge brought this on actually

just have a lot of things on my mind lately that I have no bloody idea how to put into words

It is a muted jumble of chaotic emotions.
anger, fear, confusion, happiness, nothingness.

but very toned down

almost as if
they were all thrown in a kaleidoscope
and the viewing glass was frosted


my greatest wish now
is to hug ChunJi

stop your judging.

there are too many things I'm ignoring.
so I'm focusing on someone else.
who doesn't know, doesn't care.

I'm going to raise cats.