TheWooden Floor: fire in the heart sends smoke to the head

heads up. this is another deary post on my mundane life

Just put

I MISS IT SO MUCH TOO. haha yes. i know i'm being illogical

and although the smell seriously reminds me of the STRESSFUL waiting room
i freaking love the feeling. damnnn cooling and the muscle ache is all gone :D

honestly, i can't wait for training tmr(:

ANYWAY

today i went by nat's crib
we were supposed to watch Monte Carlo (didn't watch with Elijah that day TT)

BUT WE MISSED IT.
haven't even caught transformers3 yet!!!

and HP7 is comming out
omggg

oh and we played with fire. FUN.
and Bailey was hissing non stop at Sparky! Hilarious max.

i've been blog hopping recently and.
people. have. way. too. many. depressing. blogs.

SO. seriously, if you wanna talk, call me.
i'm #foreverFree

i know this is all
OOOHHH I'm here to help cause I'm being friendly

but actually no, it isn't.
it's just that. sometimes, it is so much better to know that
well

you aren't alone. in many ways i guess.
body issues, back stabbing 'friends', hopeless crushes, impossible dreams.
illogical suicidal thoughts

and i SWEAR i won't tell anybody. its just that
in the past i felt so alone you know? like. there is no one. i couldn't even trust my ex or best friends or whoever

felt like i was burdening them with unwanted crap.

but in my case, it's not a burden at all cause im still looking for people who understand you know?

so seriously, call me 82182213.
i won't judge or lie or be some cray psycho psychiatrist I PROMISE. cross my heart and i wont be an annoying bitch either. promise.

yup. SO YOU GOTTA CALL. yes i'm talking to you. you know who you are. venting on a blog or diary seriously does not help much.

neither does making promises with people that dont last
so don't do it. make promises you can't keep.

CALL. or text, its up to you. hmm i wont make you promise anything.

because.i didn't do anything about it last time and look where i ended up
in the hospital
TWICE.

ok all moody stuff aside,