Fear foods

My Fear Foods:

GENERALLY

All fast food restaurants

All fried foods. Everything. Seriously.

Eggs

Mayonnaise

Butter

Oil

Peanuts. Wait. All nuts

Cheese

Bacon

Granola bars
Creamy soups
Fries
Potatoes
Full Fat milk
Coffee Bread
Cinnamon Bun
Pearls. from bubble tea

DRINKS

Everything but some fruit juices and water

DESSERT

Pies

Tarts

Pastries

Chocolate

Donuts
Cupcakes

Almost everything but fruits.

MEAT

Pork

Beef

Veal

Mutton

Everything but fish and chicken.

LOCAL

Fishball Noodles

Fried Rice

Char Kway Teow

Laksa

Yam paste

Chicken rice

Duck Rice

Duck noodles

Carrot cake

Ban Mian

Hokkien Mee

Hor Fun

Kuay Chup

You Tiao

Wanton mee

Sweet and sour pork

Satay

Roti Prata

Curry

Coconut milk

Keropok

Nasi Goreng

Nasi Lemak

Mee Rebus

Mee Siam

Mee soto

Goreng Pisang

Curry Puff

Ayam Goreng (wait. This is under fried foods)

Nasi Briyani

Chapati

AND EVERYTHING ELSE BECAUSE ITS FUCKING HIGH IN CALORIES AND FATS AND CARBS

You see the foods that have been bolded?

They are the ones I binged on.

Yam paste was when they let me out for a wedding dinner
(When I was at KK)

all i ate was Yam Paste.

and I couldn't stop

had an anxiety attack afterwards.

anyway. this is NOT working out. the list is endless.

let me tell you what I will eat without dying.

1. Special K Cereal

2. HL Low-Fat strawberry milk

3. MeiJi crackers
4. Brown rice
5. White Rice

6. STEAMED eggs

7. Pan fried fish

8. Steamed fish

9. Chicken, anything un-fried.

10. Steamed/raw vegetables

11. Most fruits. except Durian, Mango, Mangosteen etc.

12. Plain/Raspberry bread

13. Tofu

14. Japanese food (Sushi, Ramen, Udon)

15. Low fat/ frozen yogurt

16. sweets, low caloric snacks.

17. Egg white

that's basically it.

the slanted foods are usually not first choice.

I only eat them when my total caloric count is <1000

anything else...

I just can't stop thinking about it. and skip dinner

either that or I'll go on a binge.

because

Since I already fucked up my caloric count for the day, hey, why not do it more? not like it will make any difference, going to grow fat either way

SO IN CONCLUSION.

I don't trust hawker centers, food courts or fast food restaurants.

At home, i only trust my mum/ grandfather to prepare my food.

cause I keep thinking that other people will try to slip other stuff in.

like oil omg. or sugar or fatty food. or egg yolk or something. fucking hell.

then they will touch my good food and it will be contaminated and i'll gain extra calories.

I think my mum did that once. accidentally

when I just came home.

freaked the hell out and didn't eat at all.

but she kinda knows now :D

and my grandfather is just scared of me breaking down. haiz.

so either that or i make stuff myself. best and easiest.

and no body gets heart attacks.