chills

cant help it. its like two people living in my head.

when i look into the mirror, its like double vision - i can see both bones and fat.

 when i eat, i see both essential nutrition and unnecessary numbers.

when i step on the scale, its screams both "FAILURE" and "YOU'RE TOO FUCKING SKINNY"

when i binge, half my thoughts are saying
"this is doing you good"
another half saying
"you're going to pay for this"

when i go to sleep, then everything become quiet.

you say i have everything. yes i do.

 too much of everything.

 its a never ending battle

how can anyone be skinny and fat at the same time?
through my eyes, its possible.

lets exchange lives, shall we?